Life or Dream?

Can i differentiate between dream and my waking state?.This  thought came to me because of a very powerful and disturbing dream. I would first relate the dream and then proceed to my thoughts about dreams in general and then come to the question raised in the title.
I watched dd bharti's nite program on KedarNath.The host, a man in middle thirties dressed in kadhi.The attractive part in him was his interest and the respect he held for what he is doing unlike the other private channel tourist pro grammes with vulgar,ignorant, externally beautiful hosts who are shoddily dressed more for a party rather then a spiritual journey.He talked about a particular temple in Kedarnath where sweet water is generated.It is supposed to be the favourite place of Lord Shiva and his ardhangani, Parvathi.He drank the sweet water which was looking quite pure,more transparent then the man made bottled water.He then proceeded on to say about a small miracle that happens there..whenever one says "Hara Hara MahaDev",bubbles are generated in the water. He said and bubbles indeed came. My ever skeptical mind caught it.Is it only when we say "Hara Hara Mahadev" or can i say anything. Is it just the superstition of mindless religious masses. What if i say "Jai Shri Krishna" or "I Love you" will the bubbles come.I then proceeded to sleep and my dream took off from where my real life left.
I was at the place and drank the water it tasted quite sweet.I said "Hara Hara Mahadev". Nothing happened. Questions flooded into my mind " Iam a sinner is it not ? otherwise why doesn't it happen for me? Am i big sinner then that anchor? Iam supposed to be a very religious and a spiritual person and nothing happens ,then am i not?". I tried it again,aloud and the bubbles came. A big smile on my face. I am too happy. I now tested the frequency as to what can be the possible limit for this bubble generation. I recited the mantra as fast as i can and the small depression of water no large then 1 meter in diameter was filled with bubbles soon. I now proceeded to test the latency reciting the small mantra as slowly as possible.The bubbles didn't come. I was very excited so i didn't care about it. Then i sat very close to the place and drowned my hands completely with my palms resting on the base of the water.I wanted to directly feel the bubbles from the time they are generated.I forgot everything in the world at that moment for i found first time in life something in nature responds to my call and if i want to believe ,it is GOD.
       Suddenly,Sakthi emerged from this small lake and came towards me furiously.I ran from that place in fear. I ran and i ran but she never stopped following me.She was now escorted with her followers all dressed in white but holding long swords and killing everything that has life in their path. I was perspiring like anything and running towards a snowy mountain.I was running opposite the path of a stream that was flowing downwards.I was looking back and running forward and i tripped down.I looked forward and saw an old couple. The man was sitting on a stone and he spread his legs across the stream.I fell down because he put his legs purposefully in my path.Everything in me stopped for a moment.He then helped me to sit and he was dressing my wound.The woman beside him showed me the crowd that was following me.Somehow they were moving and at the same time not moving.They were always coming towards me but never came near me.The mob now started killing many plants and animals around.There swords and Sakthi's Thrishul were all dripped in blood.The old man beside me pointed out "Is this what you want? Is this what you are praying for?" I replied in the negative.Iam not a fool to ask for such dangers.The old woman who till now was silent and noticing her calmness i already made it up in my mind that the old man is lower in the spiritual plane and at the best he is a follower of this great yogi. While my mind was being filled with such conclusions ,she at once shouted at me "Pour water on his feet , and test yourself.If his big toe becomes blue you are indeed a spiritual person else you are not.". I took a handful of water and with utmost devotion poured them on his feet.Nothing happened ,more so his feet didn't even become wet.I poured some more and more and slowly i noticed the toe color changing from brown to dark blue. I was so excited. At that moment some one stabbed me in the back , i was filled with blood and fell down.
I woke up immediately and it was early morning but at least happy that it was not real and just a dream. Dream, but it was so real. I tasted the sweet water, i perspired and even felt the pain of a wound in a chilling cold weather. All these experiences are so real and yet untrue. Then came the question why do i take my so called waking state as real and the dream state unreal ,what if i reverse the assumption. Every time i wake up ,means i am indeed dreaming and the time i sleep is my real life. There was no snowy mountain near to me yet my mind created it for me in my dreams so also in my waking state the mind creates everything for me. All the people i talk to , hear to are all created by my mind. What can be wrong in this?. I felt various emotions in my dream(real life) so do I in the waking state (dream life,my assumption). Both the situations i experienced it and yet i say one is true and the other untrue, how did i ever come to this conclusion?
The dream i got started of because of the lasting impression the tv program had on me.After wards watever happened most of it are my subconscious questions or doubts manifested in action and experience. Some of them may be past memories, like the form i have for Sakthi or the narrow stream, but the people i faced and their words created again some impressions in mind which iam now carrying to this waking state.It is only that the dream is so powerful i remembered it else i would have had any idea about it. Every one of us fear. We fear about something and why we fear is sometimes unexplainable, the phobias people generate are not known.Don't dreams play a part in such unexplainable impressions on our minds?

I say that dreams effect real life as much as real life effect the dreams.But,the effects of dreams are not easily perceived and not latent like in day to day life but they are there. There is one difference i feel which exists is that whenever i wake up i again wake up where the state of the world doesn't change much.I am in the same room luckily, the familiar surroundings but i cannot say for sure for the case in dreams , but yet i can't prove one dream is distinctly different from the other and that every dream is a new experience.The memory somehow fails me here.

If both effect each other viz the dream life on real life and vice versa ,then comes the boundary condition Who effected whom first? When i was first conscious of my memory was it filled with experiences from dream or real life.. a classic egg,chicken problem and i know that is unsolvable and hence i have to take only one conclusion there is no difference between real life and dream life,based on the assumption that each effect the same in the same manner one is more distinct and the other hidden.

I now come to the question of what about it in the dreamless state? what happens to my mind ? why has it stopped creating anything for me ? but still i exist right, then I am different from my mind is it not? but if iam different from my mind who am i? Sakthi in my dream probably wanted me to cut off all such frivolous enjoyments ,she followed me everywhere killing everything in her vicinity ,yet she didn't kill me(this is a feeble attempt by my mind to explain the strange situation and make me stable) .. that means she cannot kill me.if she cannot why am i fearing her? It is my ignorance that drove me to identify with my body which off course any body can kill but if iam my body then i shouldn't be living once i experience dreamless state where there is no "my body" . Once something is destroyed cannot be remade. So i still exist independent of my body .. hmm this is confusing and i leave it here and conclude.

If dream life and real life are inseparable and dying in one doesn't cause death then obviously dying in the other too doesn't cause death and hence one is immortal and that immortal entity of  me (leaving the changing body ,or the reactionary emotions or the memories) is the atman and atman has to exist.Once that is accepted, Brahman or the Absolute one exists which cannot be anything but the atman  has to be accepted.Since there cannot exist two eternal, unchanging,infinite entities simulatneously .Hence TatVam Asi, Iam that.

Let's make a movie..

A grand party organized in memory of somebody who is not so important as is the cause.The who and who of the movie world were there.Walking along the black carpet with red clothes,india's most beautiful people were all present.
The music was deafening and the lighting was blinding and everybody drunk..one such drunk conversation..A young movie director in serious conversation with one of the king's of the industry.. "Sirrr, i would like to worrrk with you."
"Hmm that is a good idea ,let's make one ..it has been a long time i gave break to a director."
"Thank you sir, iam blessed . I would like to know the dates you are free, so that i can plan .you know sir now a days movie making needs optimal planning and execution, like the five year plans of india".
"I don't know about the five year plans,but iam free the whole of next month."
"Oh!! beautiful people bless me,i am indebted to you sir"

Next day the director wakes up lazily from his bed and recollects his activities yesterday.He remembers the conversation with king. He at once jumps up from his bed and takes the phone.The calls start.
"Hey, Rahul, you have been the dress designer for my previous flop movies ..but i have a lot of faith in you coz u have become ten times richer in the past 2 years.I making this movie with king ,it would be great .. what you say?"
"Ohh!! yes count me in ..working with king is like working with king, iam too happy to accept. As you know the dresses are not for the stars and as the shooting of the movie finishes the dresses would be taken back and i can't tolerate stars pressurizing me in such matters.It is a matter of work ethics you know."
"No problem yaar, i will take care of that.. u start your work"
"Ok byee"
"byee"

the next call.
"Hello is it his divine ,the music director of the masses?"
"yeah, who are you?"
"I am this young director and i signed up with king, i would like you to join in our team."
"This is a great opportunity.Only yesterday i created some wonderful tunes but very similar in tone and raga to Zimbabwean tribal music.I guess with this i would become the most original music director.Please count me in and is it the usual two rock and roll, two romantic , one sad and one sentimental song sequence."
"no!! cut the sad and sentimental and put rock and roll and romantic in their place.This is going to be a different film.Afterall, it is for king and you know people are crazy about king in such roles."
"Ok i got it. I would start my work and my pay as u know is half of what king asks."
"yes, off course , everything is usual as iam producing the movie tooo.Sir in industry no body talks about pay on phones."
"Iam sorry.I was just too excited i guess, thank you sir for giving this wonderful opportunity"
"byee..thank you too"
"welcome sir"

the next call.
"Rohit, travel agent..is it"
" ha yes"
"Iam this young director .. we are planning to make a movie ,50% of it will be in singapore and the rest in Kirghistan"
"Why kirghistan sir?"
"No special reason.I guess that area has not been covered by bollywood and we will do the best of it.See that we tie up the country's tourism department and there is king who will promote their country in the world for them."
"Sir.I guess there are not many beautiful locations out there."
"No problem we will shoot some in india and we will say it is in kirghistan.We want good publicity and making movie in indian outdoor locations is considered bad for the movies"
"yes sir ,the people come and pose in the back ground while shooting is going in the foreground."
"Not only that we have to cross the 15crore barrier in movie making right."
"ha yes sir ,otherwise everybody will start saying ours is a cheap movie and that is bad publicity"
"yes exactly. I want it for the next month.First half of the next month in singapore and the next half in kirghistan."
"Consider it done sir!! who is the heroine by the way? you know sir iam fond of beautiful women."
"I have to decide that and i will let you know in few hours."
"theek hey sir !! mein dekhloonga."

the next call is to the public relations agent(PR agent)
"Sir iam this young director and i need good publicity for my movie"
"Oh!! no problem sir. We will create many contests and give some exclusive images to music channels which they will be exlusively beaming exclusively for our audience. We would create new hair style for the hero and make people follow it and the dresses of heroines are a little problem sir but we would try."
"that is good to hear.You are already on the job.We have king in the lead role"
"yes sir, we will create an sms contest and dinner with heroine contest. I hope their is some controversy generated between king and the heroine.It would be great for the movie publicity."
"We will see it too it."
"The job is done sir,Thank you"
"thank you ..byee"

The heroine too is signed up on phone.The rest of supporting characters are taken as most of them are free.Everybody plans to meet on the next month at the airport.They all land up in singapore.The first two days were spent in sight-seeing as is king's wish.

They decide a location to shoot in some lane in singapore.

Camera on, everybody dressed up .. then king asks "what role am i playing?"

The yound director forgot about the story and dialogues completely.He was so busy with travel agents,music directors and designer he gave the onus of story on assistant director. He too forgot about it.They both go to some secluded place leaving the rest of the crew and discuss.
"On what do we make a movie on?"
"I guess it is difficult to create a new story now sir, time is so less and we even forgot to hire a dialogue writer."
"Hmmm!! let's make a remake then.No need of new dialogues we will use the old ones and king will take care of the rest.The story is also safe because people already accepted it."
"Sir,but new survey's show that people are tired of remakes."
"Is it?? then.. then.. let's make a remake of a remake"
"that is a good idea sir.You are very intelligent and iam blessed to work under you."
"what remake shall we remake?"
"sir I guess it should be rocky sir. Rocky ,the english version has been remade five times and the sixth is coming out. We will compete with the sixth version and make it a bollywood vs hollywood."
"This will be very good for publicity."
"Let's watch the previous five then sir."
"I think if we see it once ,the rest all are same."
"Exactly sir,that is why people are going to love it."
"hmm..let's call some pakistani hero then..this we can publicise as arts have no boundaries."
"too good sir,I already see our movie becoming a big hit in both the countries."
"Let's call off today's shooting and let everybody watch rocky and ha we will call a press conference to anounce the movie and we will ask king to talk about his new avtaar as rocky ,in which he is going to be topless most of the time. I think girls would love it."
"Our movie is a super duper hit sir."
"Let's make a movie then.."




PS:umrao jaan,don,sholay..dedicated to all these films.